I am a hard worker. I like to put forth my best work when I’m teaching, performing, or writing. When it comes to things that I know that other people will see, I want to make sure that I put forth my best work. It’s the stuff behind the scenes that I can get really lazy with: making sure I’m eating right, exercising, sitting down to read. Some of you may be like, “Tiffany, how can you be lazy about reading? Reading is so relaxing and fun.” To which I would reply, “Thanks for the insight, but I would rather veg out on the couch and watch TV than take effort to read and actually think.”
At times, laziness gets the best of me.
Don’t get me wrong. I’m not always lazy in these areas. I do put forth a lot of effort in my teaching inside and outside of my job as an educator, but there are areas of my life where at times I will have little to no effort. For example, writing. I love to write. I’m sitting in my room writing right now. Boom. But, it’s Sunday afternoon, my kids are napping, and my husband is watching football. I would love to be lazy right now and curl up on the couch under a huge, soft blanket and take a nap, which means I wouldn’t be writing. Which also means I wouldn’t be doing what the Lord has called me to do. Yes, God has called us to rest. We need rest, but there is a difference between resting and rolling over away from what the Lord wants you to do.
I have to fight against my lazy.
In the Bible, Jeremiah was known as the weeping prophet. He spoke to the Israelites about turning away from their sin and returning to the Lord, yet no one listened. For 40 years he preached a message of repentance, yet no one did. They continued to sin. I know God doesn’t rate sin, but people do. Let me just tell you, they did bad sin. Like sacrificed their own children in idol worship sin. Like men having sex with their mothers sin. Like worshiping all sorts of different gods in all sorts of weird ways sin, just to name a few. The Israelites were giving their best over to idols instead of the Lord. People mocked Jeremiah. They had him beaten and put in the stocks. Jeremiah had it bad. In Jeremiah 20, the prophet starts to complain about how he is being treated and wants to give up, stop preaching to the people to repent, but then, Jeremiah speaks some sense in verse 9:
“But if I say, ‘I will not mention Him or speak any more in His name, His word is in my heart like a fire, a fire shut up in my bones. I am weary of holding it in; indeed, I cannot.”
There are many times when I want to be lazy and not share what the Lord has been showing me. There are many days when I want to be lazy and not get up early and spend my mornings in prayer and reading the Bible. Many times I give into my laziness of not doing what I need to do in order to do nothing. In those times, God reminds me of this verse and how Jeremiah had it way worse than me, yet he couldn’t keep in what God was wanting him to do. It burned inside of him. The Word of God burned more than any spicy food could ever do, so much so that not sharing made Jeremiah even more exhausted and weary.
It was the indigestion of the Holy Spirit.
Yes, I can be lazy about a lot of things, but I pray that I am not lazy when God wants me to move or to share. I have to pray against my own laziness when it comes to things that really matter. I need to do my best work even when it won’t be on a stage or seen by other people. The truth of the matter is no matter what I do or don’t do in the early morning hours will come to light by mid-morning when I am interacting with other people. I want to give my best to God, not to anything else. Because, let’s face it, when I’m lazy and not being faithful, I can be worshiping the idol of self.