So, It’s been a while. I took a break over Christmas because, when you are a music teacher in charge of the annual Holiday concert, have two kids and a husband to shop for, and cookies to bake, things get crazy busy. Plus, as if I didn’t have enough on my plate, my husband and I thought we needed to get a dog. We realized that we like to have some sort of life change every 2 years. Since we are done having babies, a dog is the next best thing, right?
Like many ladies, I have a lot to do in any given day. It’s a schedule of go-go-go with barely enough time to stop and smell my lunch I have to inhale, let alone any roses that may come along the way. I can’t complain about it because I do it to myself by adding just one more thing. It’s like complaining that I’m fat after eating an entire sleeve of Oreos because, let’s face it, I’m not a quitter.
But then it happens…
My schedule that is delicately sitting in the balance begins to tip. I have my schedule down to a T, but then the principal at my school asks me to do just one more thing, which really isn’t that big of a deal. (The balance tips a little.) My husband has to work a later than usual, so I don’t get relief from my children who are fighting over which PBS Kids show to watch. (Tipping.) I wake up on a Tuesday morning, which I like to call Monday’s revenge, only to find my new puppy has pooped in her kennel and has rolled in said poop, needing a bath before I can take my kids to school and before I can get to work, causing me to feel rushed to work and a little cranky. (Everything in my world is splattered on the floor in one big hot mess, making me use everything in me to hold back tears of frustration.) Then, the final straw…
Insert the emotional breakdown over dinner being a little salty.
It’s not like just one thing made me feel overwhelmed with life. It was the sum of all the little things that became a weight to heavy to bear.
Thankfully, God knows me better than I know myself.
Psalm 142:3a reads: “When I am overwhelmed, you alone know the way I should turn.” I’ve been in an emotional rut lately. My life schedule has been busy, but situations causing me to guard my heart, making tough choices, and sitting in a period of waiting have been a little overwhelming. I’m thankful to know that in the moments when I feel like life is too much, the Lord knows where I should turn.
I turn to the Lord.
It doesn’t mean that all of my little issues will magically disappear. Rather, the Lord provides prospective. He allows me to see that in the grand scheme of everything going on around me, things aren’t so bad. Other times, He provides an overwhelming peace to weather the storm. He holds my heart and reminds me that I’m not alone, though the tough times seem lonely. He is right there with me every step of the way because when it comes to loving His children,
God is not a quitter.
I want to encourage you today. If you are going through an emotional rut, no matter how deep the rut may be, know that you are not alone. You can complain to God. Really. Like all on complain. Psalm 142:2 says, “I pour out my complaints before him and tell him all my troubles.” Your hardships may take you by surprise, but it God saw it coming. That’s the beauty of His sovereignty. He literally knows all. If we read the verses in order, we can pour our complaints before the Lord, feel overwhelmed with everything going on, and God will show us the way we should turn. Pretty epic.
Take heart, my friend. Not to sound like a 90’s Michael Jackson song, but you are not alone, so don’t try to handle your overwhelmed-ness by yourself. It’s amazing how even 5 minutes with the Lord can change your day. Pause and be with Jesus.
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